I Trust in Him

I must say that the past 3 months have been an amazing journey for me. It has been a renewal in spirit, in my relationship with the Lord and an overall good ''cleansing'' of my worldly-self. To back up to 4 months ago (short version!) I was struggling with depression, and being pretty good at hiding it I must say. I was angry most of the time, sadly my kids receiving some of that anger, and just seemed to be lost in a rut of day-to-day routine. It itself not consisting of ANY time for the Lord besides Sundays going to church, but my fire was gone, lost in all my family troubles, financial problems and feeling alone,(DUH because I had no time with the Lord!)
Praise God for His undying LOVE and FORGIVENESS! I had started a Beth Moore study in September and I know that the Lord had appointed me to go. He has spoken ( tears rolling down my face as I type) so much to me, but most of all has changed my heart. My circumstances with my family and finances have not changed, but my heart, and trust in God has been so completely ''remodeled'' that I no longer suffer these burdens but GLADLY and graciously give them to the Lord. Remarkable He WANTS to hear us complain, He wants us to ''vent'' our frustrations to Him. My trust in His Word has grown exponentially, and look forward to my daily time with Him; face-down (literally) on my floor giving each and every day to Him! In this time and pilgrimage with the Lord I have seen my fire return, my anger and depression subside and just my ''old self'' back. No longer do I wear my worldly cloak, Jesus has renewed my spirit and each and every day I praise Him and thank Him for every opportunity to draw closer to Him!

Psalm 56:4
In God I will praise His word, in God I have put my trust; I will not fear what flesh can do to me.

Joyous Times!

Lately my prayers have mostly included a renewed joy with my daughter. She is two years old and is just ''naughty'' sometimes. Doesn't like to obey me, taking her on my outings is flat out STRESSFUL!, and seems that I have been robbed of my joy in her. Well after many tears, and prayers I think the Lord has answered them all! Praise you GOD:-) Ive been feeling so helpless and just frustrated with her because I'm always having to discipline her and felt I didn't have much time to really enjoy her. This last week, I must say, has been such a delight! She has really grown ( as much as a 2 year old can) and I think that the Lord has restored our joy and fun times. I've been able to take her on my outings the last 4 times and she's obeyed and it's been fun, she's wanted to bring her own purse with us for fun shopping time
So if anyone is experiencing this, just keep diligent on your prayers because the Lord hears your cries and will answer in His timing:-) I must admit too, I have really worked on my attitude as a mother, being more patient, loving, gentle. I have always struggled with my tempter and the Lord has really worked on that with me, so thank you Lord for my renewed strength and joy with Ella Grace! I have had the best week ever!!